I'm glad to see you smiling because you deserve to smile. Just getting the laughter out and feeling the joy, it's an indescribably fantastic feeling. It's like a warmth has finally been invited into a void of darkness. It's easy to get stolen away by the dark thoughts. Because those thoughts can be powerful. The thoughts distract you with anxieties, and as your attention is stolen away, it pulls you down into the hole that you can't escape from. I know how tough it is because, for several months, I have been going through this same process of having to battle my own mind in order to maintain a barely functional existence. The battle with my own mind has exhausted me so much that interacting with people the way I want to is almost impossible. And the second guesses and the eyes burning into the back of your head don't help in the slightest. I can't say I have any advice, but sometimes it is okay to not have all of the answers. This is life. You aren't s...